Enough is Enough….

  It's been three weeks now that I've officially been home with Isaac since Tony started his job.   I am finally getting Isaac and I into a routine that works for us. My days have been a swirl of feeding, medicine, vacuuming, chasing, dusting, feeding, changing, cooking, feeding, medicine, changing, chasing, laundry, cooking, dusting, feeding. This is much different than my days in the corporate world and some days I wonder if what I am doing is enough. I'll be honest with you, I really don't miss work in the corporate world.  For me, my various jobs always felt like a means … [Read more...]

Up in the Air…

It's amazing how much can happen in a few short months. The last time I wrote, we had been in Charlotte for a few months and I was about to end my employment with OneHope and become a full-time stay at home mom.  Tony was looking for employment and Isaac was just perfecting his skill at rolling over. Isaac is now walking like a pro, Tony started his job last Monday, and I have a few months of stay at home mommying under my belt. I suppose that could be the end of my update.  If I were to see you out at the grocery store and you asked how we were doing and what was new, what I wrote … [Read more...]

Mommy and Me…

A little over a year ago, Tony and I had taken a short day-trip to Naples, FL to explore and more importantly, visit the closest Trader Joe's to where we were living.   While having lunch at a local seafood restaurant on the water, our conversation wound itself into a discussion about when we want to have children, how many, favorite baby names, and all that.  While Tony was taking a big bite of his lunch, I decided to say to him what I had been feeling in my heart for a long time, but hadn't said it out loud yet. "I think I want to be a stay-at-home mom." Now, before I continue with … [Read more...]

Just to See You Smile…

I was expecting the lack of sleep. I was expecting cries that I wouldn't understand and know what to do with. I did my best to prepare before Isaac's arrival and was expecting so many things. But I wasn't expecting this. This mommy heartache. The hurting and longing that comes when Isaac seems to prefer other people over me. I just didn't know this would happen so soon. Lately, it's been daddy that gets the biggest smiles and loudest giggles while mommy gets cries and/or blank stares.  I get the same look he gives the wall as he examines it for minutes on end. I'm like a … [Read more...]

Gimme a Break…

I've been back at work full time for about a month now and I have to say that it has been much better than I thought it would be.  Isaac loves his teacher, Gabi, and all the other amazing teachers at For Him Christian Academy and BONUS it's in the same building I work.  It's a working mom's dream to be able to run down and see her baby whenever she wants/needs.  I've been able to hop back into work relatively easily and another bonus is that I work for an amazing and supportive boss that believes in putting family first. All that being said, it's hard to be a working mom even when your baby … [Read more...]

We’ve Only Just Begun…

Isaac is two months old today!  Two entire months have passed since he made his arrival into the world.  A wise man once said, "Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." I feel like my life has gone into warp drive since Isaac's arrival.  I mean, Isaac is already wearing 6 month clothes and size 2 diapers, you guys!  My mommy heart wants so badly for time to stop so I can cuddle my tiny baby boy as long as possible.  Before I know it I am going to be sending him off to his first day of Kindergarten, buying him ridiculously expensive shoes so … [Read more...]

Battling the Baby Blues…

My struggles with the Baby Blues happened way before Isaac was born. It wasn't very far into my first trimester that I knew the way I was feeling wasn't just the normal hormone changes that come with pregnancy. I had been down this road several times before in my life.  The road where anxiety holds my left hand and depression holds my right. In all honesty, they had been gaining on me for awhile before I got pregnant.  All the transitions in my life over these last few years left me vulnerable to them and they knew it. At my first pre-natal doctor's appointment they made sure to … [Read more...]

I Support You…

"This is where most women stop breastfeeding." As I looked at Janet, one of two very knowledgable and helpful lactation consultants I had helping me, with my tear stained cheeks and head fuzzy from lack of sleep, so many responses ran through my head. Most of them were along the lines of, "Please, Please!, PLEASE get this milk out of me forever and ever so I never have to even think about breast feeding or boobs or latching or pumps or engorgement ever again for all of eternity!" But instead of saying anything I just cried. I cried because I knew that no matter how much I wanted to … [Read more...]

When the Walls Come Tumblin’ Down…

On July 3rd 2013 I will have been in South Florida for two years.  It just doesn't seem possible that two years have gone by since I loaded up all my stuff from my parents garage in WV and moved over a thousand miles away to Sunny (and HOT) Florida to marry a man I met just a few months prior.  As I look back over this time I am amazed at just how fast God has changed me and my life. In this short amount of time I have become a wife, a resident of Florida, a member of a new church, had two jobs, and am now getting ready to become a mommy. That's kindof a lot. I would love to tell you … [Read more...]

A New Dawn, A New Day…

Welcome to my new blog! Tony designed it for me in secret and surprised me with it a few weeks ago.  Seriously, how amazingly awesome is my husband?! I've still got some work to do around the site, but I just couldn't wait to share it with you all.  I am a little nervous to be writing again since it's been a year, but I can't just let this beautiful blog sit idle now can I!?  It's been long enough and you know I've got something to say, so let's get started, ya'll! I am 34 weeks pregnant today.  There are days that I look down as my growing belly jumps this way and that way as my little one … [Read more...]