Happy 1st Birthday, Isaac!…

Happy First Birthday, my sweet Isaac! You arrived just one year ago today at 1:32pm during a thunder storm. Since that moment, Daddy and I have been forever changed.  Our hearts have learned a new kind of love.  It's different than the kind of love that Mommy and Daddy feel for each other, because that love is a choice.  A beautiful choice that we desire to make everyday, but still a choice none-the-less. The love we have for you isn't a choice.  It isn't something we can turn off even if we wanted to (and we don't). The kind of love we have for you is unconditional and … [Read more...]

Cold Coffee: A Parent’s Lament…

Good Morning, my darling. It's been too many hours since we were last together. As I hold you close and feel your warmth, I can't help but lean my head down and take a deep breath of your heavenly scent. These moments together are so sweet and precious. I can't remember what my life was like before you were in it. As I drink in every second we are together, I am so filled with hope and promise for the day ahead. You, Hot Coffee, you are a beautiful rarity; something to be cherished. So many times I've let our relationship grow cold. I've left you sitting there, with your … [Read more...]

Say What You Need To Say….

"8 things NEVER to say to a stay-at-home mom" "15 things you should never say to a dog lover" "50 things you should never say to a pregnant woman" "1,230 things you should never ever say at all no matter what" "NEVER SAY ANYTHING!! STOP TALKING ALTOGETHER!!!" If you're anything like me, and I think you just might be, you are drawn to these viral lists that rocket around the internet day after day.  I've shared them many-a-time.  Especially the ones on what you should never say to a pregnant lady.  I had so many people say things to me while I was pregnant that made me … [Read more...]

Enough is Enough….

  It's been three weeks now that I've officially been home with Isaac since Tony started his job.   I am finally getting Isaac and I into a routine that works for us. My days have been a swirl of feeding, medicine, vacuuming, chasing, dusting, feeding, changing, cooking, feeding, medicine, changing, chasing, laundry, cooking, dusting, feeding. This is much different than my days in the corporate world and some days I wonder if what I am doing is enough. I'll be honest with you, I really don't miss work in the corporate world.  For me, my various jobs always felt like a means … [Read more...]

Decisions, Decisions…

Historically, I have not been the best decision maker.  It started when I was younger and wanting to please others and fit in and it continued for years after that.  It wasn't until recently that I have been much better at making decisions. Maybe too good at it. Not only am I better at making decisions for myself, but I am an expert at making decisions for other people.  My secret to success is never actually asking them what they want to do and just decide for them.  Let me be clear, not in a sense that I force people to do things.  It's actually the opposite.  By not letting people … [Read more...]

Up in the Air…

It's amazing how much can happen in a few short months. The last time I wrote, we had been in Charlotte for a few months and I was about to end my employment with OneHope and become a full-time stay at home mom.  Tony was looking for employment and Isaac was just perfecting his skill at rolling over. Isaac is now walking like a pro, Tony started his job last Monday, and I have a few months of stay at home mommying under my belt. I suppose that could be the end of my update.  If I were to see you out at the grocery store and you asked how we were doing and what was new, what I wrote … [Read more...]

Mommy and Me…

A little over a year ago, Tony and I had taken a short day-trip to Naples, FL to explore and more importantly, visit the closest Trader Joe's to where we were living.   While having lunch at a local seafood restaurant on the water, our conversation wound itself into a discussion about when we want to have children, how many, favorite baby names, and all that.  While Tony was taking a big bite of his lunch, I decided to say to him what I had been feeling in my heart for a long time, but hadn't said it out loud yet. "I think I want to be a stay-at-home mom." Now, before I continue with … [Read more...]

Just to See You Smile…

I was expecting the lack of sleep. I was expecting cries that I wouldn't understand and know what to do with. I did my best to prepare before Isaac's arrival and was expecting so many things. But I wasn't expecting this. This mommy heartache. The hurting and longing that comes when Isaac seems to prefer other people over me. I just didn't know this would happen so soon. Lately, it's been daddy that gets the biggest smiles and loudest giggles while mommy gets cries and/or blank stares.  I get the same look he gives the wall as he examines it for minutes on end. I'm like a … [Read more...]

Gimme a Break…

I've been back at work full time for about a month now and I have to say that it has been much better than I thought it would be.  Isaac loves his teacher, Gabi, and all the other amazing teachers at For Him Christian Academy and BONUS it's in the same building I work.  It's a working mom's dream to be able to run down and see her baby whenever she wants/needs.  I've been able to hop back into work relatively easily and another bonus is that I work for an amazing and supportive boss that believes in putting family first. All that being said, it's hard to be a working mom even when your baby … [Read more...]

We’ve Only Just Begun…

Isaac is two months old today!  Two entire months have passed since he made his arrival into the world.  A wise man once said, "Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." I feel like my life has gone into warp drive since Isaac's arrival.  I mean, Isaac is already wearing 6 month clothes and size 2 diapers, you guys!  My mommy heart wants so badly for time to stop so I can cuddle my tiny baby boy as long as possible.  Before I know it I am going to be sending him off to his first day of Kindergarten, buying him ridiculously expensive shoes so … [Read more...]