Happy 1st Birthday, Isaac!…

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Happy First Birthday, my sweet Isaac!

You arrived just one year ago today at 1:32pm during a thunder storm.

Since that moment, Daddy and I have been forever changed.  Our hearts have learned a new kind of love.  It’s different than the kind of love that Mommy and Daddy feel for each other, because that love is a choice.  A beautiful choice that we desire to make everyday, but still a choice none-the-less. The love we have for you isn’t a choice.  It isn’t something we can turn off even if we wanted to (and we don’t).

The kind of love we have for you is unconditional and irrevocable.

From the moment the nurses laid your tiny little body on my chest, I knew I would do my best to love, nurture, teach, protect, and care for you every single day of my life.  I didn’t know how I was going to do it, but I knew I would do whatever it took to figure it out.

Mommy changed the day you were born.  I became less selfish and afraid.  I became stronger and more determined.  I had a purpose that was so much greater than me.

I had you.

Over this last year I have learned a lot.  I could make a list of all the things I’ve learned, but that would take a really long time.  Instead I will tell you the two most important things I’ve learned since becoming your mommy.

The most important thing I have learned, more than ever before in my life, is my great need for God.

There are so many times that I have no idea what I’m doing when it comes to caring for you.

Daily.  Hourly.  Minute by minute.

So many times you’ve cried and I don’t know why or how to fix it.  Or you’ve been sick and I wasn’t sure how to make you better.  Times that I didn’t know if I should let you cry or pick you up.  Or times I wasn’t sure what to feed you and when.  I have stumbled and bumbled through your first year of life with not much more than constant prayers and my deep desire to do my very best at being your Mommy.   I have had to lean on God and not on my own understanding…mostly because I don’t have any understanding to begin with, but it still counts.

The second most important thing I learned was to forget about black and white parenting advice and learn YOU.  One size does not fit all when it comes to parenting a child.  I’ve realized that there is no cut and dry answer to parenting the “right” way. But what I have learned a lot about is how to be YOUR mommy.  What works for you, may not work for other babies, and that’s okay. On top of all that, you change almost daily.  Just when I think I’ve got something mastered, you change again and therefore, so must I.  

Isaac, you are more than Daddy and I could have ever asked for or imagined.  You have changed us forever in the best way possible.  When we see you running to us with your curls bouncing and a smile on your face, we are undone.  Your personality and character are already so evident and we can’t wait to see who God made you to be continue to unfold as the days, months, and years go on.  I believe you will show us so much about who God is, and who we are in Him.  You are already so encouraging and uplifting to those around you; even strangers on the street.  The Lord has given you so many beautiful gifts and Daddy and I pray that we help you realize those gifts.  You are our son, but you are also a totally separate and unique person.  I pray that Daddy and I are able to figure out how to let you be you without putting any pressure on you to be someone you’re not; no matter what.  We are so proud of you and are so thankful to be your parents.

Happy Birthday, Mr. Big Stuff!

Love,

Mommy

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Comments

  1. Katie-this is the most beautiful blog you have written! It captures it all…you are amazing and raising a beautiful little boy! I’m sad that I haven’t met him yet but really hope to very soon (…ehem—October). His little smile melts my heart! Happy Bitthday little guy! Love & hugs! 🙂

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